5.21.2009

Embracing the Unknown

Her:Photo taken on Saturday at the Art Institute in Chicago

It's Thursday morning; the sun is shining and it's going to be another fantastic Chicago day. The last few days, I've been trying to figure out how to start some kind of business to supplement my quickly dwindling back account. So far I'm pondering the idea of selling things on Ebay; I do have way too much stuff. Plus, I figure if things don't sell, I can just give them away.

I'm still tutoring and babysitting; but sadly, those jobs aren't quite enough to even pay the rent. I'm hoping I will learn about a congregation I can serve soon, but it might be awhile. In the meantime, I'll put some things on Ebay and try to brainstorm other entrepreneurial ideas. If only I got paid for blogging, twittering, and taking photos! :) I did recently get a digital recorder, so I might learn how to create a podcast this week or next. It seems like a fun idea. I could do interviews and learn things about people and life.

I will admit, after two decades of constantly being in school - it's a little weird to be no longer a student. I am a lover of structure and schedule. I don't have much of either at the moment. However, there must be a way for me to embrace and appreciate this new found state of non-studentness. If only I knew how to savor the unknown. Instead, I just get a gag reflex from the unexpected. The mystery of this transitional stage makes me quesy and unsure. But whatever! Enough of that! It doesn't have to be that way!

We are all constantly transitioning, right? This is part of the human experience. Even when our lives are surrounded by structure and schedule, there are still unknowns, and life is going to stink if we constantly live in fear of the twists and turns in the road ahead. The unpredictable is not to be feared; the unpredictable can be where grace and love and authenticity are discovered! Life is filled with mystery. And that can be a great thing; not a scary thing. We are all in this together.

What I am suddenly realizing as I type, is this: I need to dive into this day (and all days) with my whole self present, confident that I am truly ready to swim. It is time to get off the diving board; there are other people waiting in line and I've got an ocean of limitless depths to discover.

1 comment:

  1. Hey friend! I was watching a segment on the Today Show this a.m. about people selling crafts, etc. on Etsy.com. The original investment might be too much for right now but it might be worth checking out. You are super creative and make really cool stuff that people would want to buy. :)

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