Reverb 10 - Days 3, 4, and 5

Remember when I made that goal to write 10 minutes every morning?

I'm still working on achieving that one. In fact, I'm planning to start tomorrow. I'm sure thankful for "tomorrows" - each day is a new opportunity for a BNL (brand new life).

And remember when I was so excited about #reverb10? Well, I got a little behind.

I'm playing catch-up tonight before bed. I really do think Reverb 10 is a fabulous concept, and hopefully I can get into a daily habit SOON!

In the meantime, the candles are lit, Damien Rice is playing in the background, I'm wearing my most ridiculous pajamas - and it's now time to write.

As a totally unrelated side-note, isn't it fascinating when ex-significant others get engaged and married and reproduce? And when I say"fascinating" - I mostly mean it. In some cases, I also mean "disturbing" and "heartbreaking." But today, I just mean, "fascinating." I don't really know how to describe this feeling. Facebook makes information way too accessible. I'm not actually "friends" in real life with these people anymore, but they are still my Facebook friends, and so those "helpful" updates show up on my screen leading me to wedding albums and engagement photos and baby photos and all the rest. It's just an odd feeling. I am truly happy for the exes. Sincerely. And it gives me an odd sense of closure, which I otherwise rarely find at the end of relationships. Thanks for listening to that brief aside. Like I said....fascinating. The sounds of Damien Rice singing in the background always make me overly reflective. Back to the assignment at hand.

Prompt for December 3 – Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

I have a handful of "highly alive" moments from the past year. I took a spontaneous roadtrip in the middle of the night just to arrive at my destination and turn back around. I was feeling trapped in my life, and I needed to escape. During all of those hours in the car, it seemed that anything was possible and nothing could contain me.

I also felt truly alive in New Mexico seeing breath-taking views and interacting with extended family whom I adore but don't see often enough.

And very recently, I sat in the hospital accompanied by two of the most amazing people in the universe and got an iv treatment for my blood, and I felt really, really alive. Mostly because I knew that I wouldn't have to worry about platelet counts for a few weeks, and because I got to spend time with my mom and brother. Somehow one of the least-inviting environments (the hospital) became a little, life-giving, sanctuary.

Prompt for December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

Photography.

Prompt for December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year?

This year, I let go of the hope of ever understanding why bad things happen in life.

See all the prompts for days 1-5 HERE.